againts the pain!

The world no longer funny or am I too scepticaly pathetic right away? 

            Theres no sound in my room. I can feels the emptiness surround my head. Its feels so comfortable, so why them so afraid with that? Oh maybe im too blind to see what ordinary peoples seen. That’s fine. They never have the journey like I have. They never know how to feels so scared when you lost the most lovely person in their world and they never face the great suffer like I did. They aren’t me, anyway.

            Its feels so alone and I enjoyed it. I can see others fake smiling everywhere. Pretending as best friend but stabbin each others behind their back as soon as possible. Human looks so awful, nowdays. Somehow I wish I can turn into a abadoned little kitten. I can run as much as I love. I can meow as much as I like. And lives getting so easier without any dramas like human always do. I just feels so tired with this suck dramas living things.

            No. im not giving up. Yeah, im looked so pathetic gloomy persons. Let it be. Cause out of there, I believe there is still someone who feels the way im so sick about. Even if I don’t know them, its okay. Sometimes pain are the sweetest way to make sure you still alive. Suicide its a stupid option who looser  try to make as an excuse for what lord give to us, a blessed breathtaking everyday. Maybe im a loner but im still feels blessed with what Lord give to me without im asking it first.

            I wanna be free. Without any social disorder who wanna rules my lives. Without anyone who rudely asked to me just to feels their live easier with badword at me. I don’t need what their bubly fake said everyday. I don’t want to be the boredoom person who tied them apart. I don’t need buy any fancy stuff just to feel “high” in their eyes. I just wanna simply enjoy my days without any fake excuses. I don’t need, any. Really.

 

"So damn right!!!"

            Lets take down this loneliness and turn it into power who bring back pure joy around! Many things that I never try before and wait to challenge me nicely, many things I used to do long time ago and miss me so much, many people from around the globe who never meet me before and wait patiently to shared each other and speak with the word of love and gather us together. So many happines to share to all of people surround, being inspire and inspiring too, and I wish I could luckily meet you to someday! Oh happy life!!!

Some wise old man told me, “your past is just a story, and once when you realize this, it has no power over you!”. Even the great sinner their future are still clean and bright! So go through it and enjoy your too much me time and turn it into powerfull spirirt and just go whatever you love, do whatever you like, life passionately and go get’em! Its your truly life, not them or they! It’s you and that’s all!