Pathetic

The world no longer funny or am I too scepticaly pathetic right away? 

            Theres no sound in my room. I can feels the emptiness surround my head. Its feels so comfortable, so why them so afraid with that? Oh maybe im too blind to see what ordinary peoples seen. That’s fine. They never have the journey like I have. They never feels so scared like I did. They aren’t me, anyway.

            Its feels so alone and I enjoyed it. I can see others fake smiling everywhere. Pretending as best friend but stabbin each others behind their back as soon as possible. Human looks so awful, nowdays. Somehow I wish I can turn into a abadoned little kitten. I can run as much as I love. I can meow as much as I like. And lives getting so easier without any dramas like human always do. I just feels so tired with this suck dramas living things.

            No. im not giving up. Yeah, im looked so pathetic gloomy persons. Let it be. Cause out of there, I believe there is still someone who feels the way im so sick about. Even if I don’t know them, its okay. Sometimes pain are the sweetest way to make sure you still alive. Suicide its a stupid option who looser  make to excuse what lord give to us, a blessed breathtaking everyday. Maybe im a loner but im still feels blessed with what Lord giving us without we asking it first.

            I wanna be free. Without any social disorder who wanna rules my lives. Without anyone who rudely asked to me just to feels their live easier with badword at me. I don’t need what they bubly fake said everyday. I don’t want the boredoom who tied them apart. I don’t need buy any fancy stuff just to feel “high” in their eyes. I just wanna simply enjoy my days without any fake excuses. I don’t need, any. Really.

            Freed my soul feel my pain, sunshine.