The past should stay dead~

Many times i used to stand beside you, earn so much pain and so many happiness that i never got before.A mazing was your middle name and doubt was your  last name. I shows my everthings, my scars, my fear, my sweetest smile, my past, everything and i got none on you~ how hell living on that days.

I like every little things you gave to me. Your  cares, your  text on my disk, your newest songs, your silly astrology, your damn freak smile, yeah those things makes me mad,once. That stuff i can’t reject and erase  easier  like i wipes my tears when i remember on your shameless uncounted  memories. I can’t.

Our hopes,our enemies,our wish every single time that never comes true,now on become a scary ghost on my nightmare. Even i cant slept  after  i counting sheep and  drunk  much caffein, i  just can’t.  Unfinished pathetic  story and those great stuf f with you. .

What cursed you turn me into? It’s one of  a tragedic  from  what i deserved? tell me those fuckin truth! Im tired being  played by hide and seek with you.you hide and i always seek, it’s what you want? Sorry darling, i  just can’t.

I remembered those days. When rains ruins down , when softly winds slap my face, when i held your hands and you terrible smile at me, when those movee doesnt make my mind stop thinking bout a boy next to me, when you. . argh,those days always makes me sadly mistaken

Its all what we’ve got?

Its all what you want?

I runaway and you broke those memories on your lonely corner?

I moving on and you act like never knows me before?

Althought i got big yes on your lips i still cant erase your  fuckin smile  on my head.i know that only headshoot ends this  up.  I just meet you in wrong way,wrong place,wrong feels from the beggining,dear  and may i beg ya tightly? I’ll meet you soon as possible if we’re both wrote on same way on destiny scrappbook,if not im lucky meet a beautifull man in my whole life thats was you,my dear maine charmant. .

“god forgive me for all of my sins”

“god forgive me for everything “

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Your  beloved  koalandroid

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